I haven't smoked a cigarette in two whole weeks
and I'm learning not to hate myself for little things
all this time alone is forcing me to take control of
the times I don't clean my apartment or communicate
and when I have to work tomorrow and stay up too late
I finally feel inspired and I'm not ok with the way I was
So I'll draw my own lot in life
I know what it's like to be present without presence
I've come to terms with who I am
And I'm learning to love myself again (again)
Slowly becoming better than who I've been
So let me try and say I'm sorry for the last two years
When I was drinking way too often to control my fear
Of a meaningless existence where I just disappear
And I wanna take a minute to accept the blame
For all the times that I would swear to you that I would change
I misplaced my motivation and I just remained the same
So I'll draw my own lot in life
I know what it's like to be present without presence
I've come to terms with who I am
And I'm learning to love myself again (again)
Slowly becoming better than who I've been
I know I'm good enough
Enough for anyone
And finally myself
So I'll draw my own lot in life
I know what it's like to be present without presence
I've come to terms with who I am
And I'm learning to love myself again (again)
Slowly becoming better than who I've been
(Everything's alright, Everything's just fine)
(I'm moving on from here, so steady so clear)
The verse "Can't even buy a coffee without exploiting someone" got me. It really hits hard. For the entire length of the album it felt like the end of the world.
But to be perfectly honest, it's just how life is these days. And it's fucked up. szczur
The London band's new album is a vibrant postcard from southern Italy, boosted by brass, strings, and pizzica percussion from local players. Bandcamp New & Notable Apr 14, 2024