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Elwood's
05:42
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Most of the time I have no idea who I am
Most of the time I’m just stumbling trying to survive
But everything gets clearer when I look at you
Most of the time all the voices inside they won’t quit
Most of the time I am nothing close to my unironic self
But everything gets clearer when I look at you
And everything I’ve done ‘til now, is to try and be a better man
But the sadness, comes creeping up beside my bed at night
And the liquor never asks what’s in my head
In my head
That was a year ago
And I still replay that shit
I never truly understood
How it could come to this
I’m not good enough, not for anyone
Especially myself
All this time I always blamed you, because if it was your fault then I wouldn’t have to change
And I really don’t think I’m capable of that right now
Could I find myself in the breakdown?
And if I fell from these heights, could I find myself in the breakdown?
Eventually I’ll get it right, get a therapist and sleep at night
Until then, I’m swimming for dry land
I even went to church again, it seems some bruises God won’t mend
Nothing’s really going as I planned
And I know that I should let you go, but I just can’t seem to so
Maybe I can drink you off, maybe I can drink you off my mind
I feel like blacking out, forgetting all this stress
These empty conversations, I’m already over them
I feel like blacking out - who’s blood is on my fist?
The only thing I need to know - is will it always be like this?
I feel like blacking out
(I’m not good enough, enough for anyone, especially myself)
Will it always be like this?
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2. |
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I stopped seeing straight
About an hour ago
Does anybody have a menthol?
Hey bro, can I bum a smoke?
I drank tequila straight
For like an hour or so
Is your friend Dom still here?
I wanna buy some, well, ya know
(Snow)
And everything’s alright
Everything’s just fine
Even though I joke about it
It’s not all the time
Cause everything’s alright
Everything’s just fine
Even though I joke about it
It’s not all the time
I’m pretty sure I wrote a screenplay
With your best friend, Sbeve(?)
Does anybody wanna shotgun?
Hey, can I borrow your keys?
I won 8 games of beer bong
A horserace or two
I can’t go home alone again
Can I leave with you?
(No)
And everything’s alright
Everything’s just fine
Even though I joke about it
It’s not all the time
And everything’s alright
Everything’s just fine
Even though I joke about it
It’s not all the time
And I can’t stop now, I can’t slow down
Cause then I’d actually have to work on myself
And it hurts a bit less, when I drink away my stress
Back into the corner with my memories of you
So I can’t wait until I can’t think straight
And leave these hollowing goodbyes behind me
So thanks again for everything, you know I’ll feel this endlessly
Probably won’t do anything dangerous just yet
And everything’s alright
(Everything’s alright)
Everything’s just fine
(Everything’s just fine)
Everything’s alright
(I don’t wanna talk about it)
Everything’s just fine
Nothing’s alright
(Nothing’s alright)
Nothing is fine
(Nothing is fine)
Nothing’s alright
(I don’t wanna talk about it)
Nothing is fine
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3. |
Alone in Your Apartment
04:46
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Knocked up was playing on tv again
I remember when we used to watch it when we were still just friends
It's not the nights I miss the most, just all the little things
You left me so unsure of what tomorrow brings
So who am I supposed to be when you were the best part of me?
I'm trying my best not to feed all my insecurities
I know I broke you down and I burned you out
But I still blamed you
Without your light how will I fight back
All of these demons at my door
It seems darker now, like all the stars burned out
And I can feel my definitions fading
I've been itching numb skin, trying hard to feel again
Having to convince myself there's something left for someone else
And in this moment I am confident that letting go is all I have now
Under my control
So who am I supposed to be when you were the best part of me?
I'm trying my best not to feed all my insecurities
I know I broke you down and I burned you out
But I still blamed you
So who am I supposed to be when you were the best part of me?
I'm trying my best not to bleed all these insecurities
Because I'm broken down and I'm so burnt out
And I can't blame you
So what should I do
If I can't blame you?
The only thing I know for sure
Is that I can't take much more of this
Will this pain end?
Or should I handle this myself?
The long kiss goodnight, my hands are shaking now
And if I fell from these heights, could I lose myself on the ground?
I think I'll handle this myself
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4. |
Cameron Diaz
04:02
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Ever since I can remember
I have been lacking most of my confidence and common sense
I've always been too smart for my good
Pushing everyone away because I could
Maybe you should write this down
I feel like there's still time to get it right
Maybe with some solid ground
Where I stand then I can turn the tide
With some time of self-reflection
I'm willing to admit incompetence when it comes to this
Always been too lost in my own head
I think it's time to look somewhere else instead
Maybe you should write this down
I feel like there's still time to get it right
Maybe with some solid ground
Where I stand then I can turn the tide
(I know that I, just know that I, I know that I can get better)
(I'm moving on from here - unsteady, unclear)
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5. |
Lost in IKEA
04:50
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